yes folks, that is right, me and my bud are outta here!!!! - off to sunnier climates, and to see if the guys are any better upside down! 12 weeks and then we are offski! Which is good really, cos for some reason, the big man has decided that I am to run into the shagpiece EVERY day now!

I keep thinking maybe it is pure coincidence, but something tells me not! Maybe it is a sign to say, "get the hell out of the country or this will be your fate"....... which is more likely! - Seeing as it was him who put the idea of travelling firmly in my head, maybe it is a gentle.... no scrap that... kick in the teeth... reminder that I am going to do this!! - so as fate would have it his girlfriend arrives from Australia, whilst the person he was cheating on her with is now heading out there instead...... (for those just tuning in, I was unaware of the girlfriend at the time!)

And another reason I have to go, is that I started  (please note that I only said started) to miss the saturdays at B&Q....... dear god, where is my passport????

Oh and apologies to the shorthanders out there for my missuse of the LOL and LUL???? I apparently having been loving and laughing at the wrong time...... story of my life!!!

LUL Rabbit x x

.......yes two posts today, I had to pop out half way through the last............. Ok, so after a bit of reflection on the last couple of weeks, things have, shall we say, not been that great! But if you channel your energy into things that aren't so good for you, and not into things that are good for you..... say for example, your friends, family, job.....then just like anything in this world, things will start to go wrong, when you don't mantain them properly.

When you get to the point that you unintentionally, but still have, upset a good friend you care about, then you have to think to yourself, how did it happen? We are all responsible for our own actions, even when under the influence, as it is you who puts yourself in that position to start with. So with that, we should all accept the wrongs we do and make them better. It is all well going out and having fun, and get swept up with the idea that nothing else matters but having a good time, but everything in life has to balance, and you should equal the amount of energy you put into everything, otherwise, once the scales have tipped and things start to go wrong, you will have to put even more hard work into making things better........ but one thing is for sure, doing one nice little thing for someone else, or even just making the effort, makes you feel instantly better, and then your on the right path.

One thing I do know, is it is important to know who in this world genuinley cares for you. Once you have worked that out, then you should make sure that they are always your first priority. I have some amazing people in my life, and am luckier than a lot of people I know, to have people who care as they do, and even though I may sometimes may appear to have forgotten this, I haven't at all, it is a brief lapse in priorites which everyone has, as we are only human after all!!! And as long as we learn by our mistakes, rather than keep repeating them, then we should be ok!!!!

Sorry if it has been a deep one today, but sometimes these things need to be said, and a sense of reality brought in!

UKR x x

I have never understood how people can fall in love with people who they have never met, you read it in these magazines, that people who have only spoken by phone or email, have fallen madly in love and decided to get married without ever meeting...... always struck me as abit surreal..... yet after another late night call from the piano man, I am starting to understand! (No I am not in love!)

 I stupidly walked home alone after not saving enough cash for a cab! And was freaked out by 2 guys following me! - Then I recieve a call from the same guy who randomly called at 3am to ask about the piano. His intention was to wind me up again, but he ended up being more concerened that I was crapping myself, and is still texting me as we speak, checking I am ok, and I am finding myself growing quite fond of someone I have never met!!!

The next question poses this dilema...... do I meet this said knight in shining armour, and ruin the fantasy, or do I take a gamble and I maybe pleasantly surprised!!!???

Did I, or did I not say yesterday that this journal would come full circle??? - Yes I did, and I was right. A strong word of advice, when drinking cocktails of vodka, larger and cider, it is possibly not a good idea to search for information that you may not want to hear!! The result will be a very emotional and steaming drunk rabbit, with a giant dildo being passed about, and then signing yourself up to be an air hostess................. and god knows what else, I am sure I heard stripper mentioned somewhere?? eeek!

Oh well, it makes for better reading eh? So everyone should be highly entertained, and maybe thats what you get for not putting the plaything back! They put you back before you get a chance! - There is now an age limit of AT LEAST 25........ fuck it, 30! They surely can't be that childish at that age....... can they? - Actually, as my memory is slowly returning (not a good thing I can promise you!)....... I do believe that most of the men in the pub last night were over 30, and as great fun to be with as they are, .......... just no, wouldn't happen!......... (and for my male over 30 friends that read this I'm not on about you guys!!!)................... christ, does that mean 40s then? - But then they have a mid life crisis, and get up to all sorts of wierd shit!!!! - 50s??? 60s?????? Sod it, maybe men are at there best when dead?? - Can't dick you about then surely?

Well, the hangover is kicking in, so I am off! Need to do some work (yes I made it in!!) - and see if I really have signed up to be a trolley dollie?????

x x

If this is the circle of life, an unending loop which everyone is on, then maybe that is where life is FUC£ING UP!!!!! - just a suggestion, but if crap keeps happening, and your life is a circle, then we are all pretty much screwed eh?

Think about it, don't you all know someone who the sun seems to constantly shine on, and everything goes right for, then you have the "unlucky sods" who take everyone elses share!? - Well I have a suggestion, let's re-write life, as, I don't know??? Lego? loads of nice colours, and you can pull it apart and restart at any time?

Reason for this? - I don't know, maybe if we refer to the first entry for the shagpiece, it seems to have come full circle and now they are playing on my mind;  even more strange, that since they have begun to irritate my thoughts like a bad dose of scabes, they now appear before my eyes at every turn, when I haven't seen them in months!!!

So, it appears that this journal will now to have to follow the same circular path, so does that mean another game of jenga and shagging my way out of places??? Oh god, even worse, does that mean a sunday session resulting in getting into serious trouble and hiding out for a few days? - Maybe it's a good thing, I know where I messed up last time!!! Or if I enjoyed it enough I'll have another go!!

Stop the world! I want to get off!!!

Rabbit x

I feel rubbish! Is this what the world is like without alcohol? Seriously, I am bored, bored, bored! But it's all good, because I am going to start running.... tomorrow!!! Honest!

I am missing my new friend! But am trying to keep learning her language so we can talk about people and they won't know what we are saying!!! Apart from with her accent, I am repeating what I think she is saying, and actually she is talking to me in english, and I am repeating what we are saying in english, infront of said person..... just with a retarded accent!

I am afraid to say I also screwed up with regards to the information that I give on this site! So apologies to those I know tune in to hear about my love life, but for now I will have to keep it buttoned!

(Note to self: Do not tell said person drunkenly that you have a website and that they are on it, and then be surprised a few days later when they start repeating extracts from it!!! Damn you Google!)

Also, I have had a taste of my own medicine, I was randomly called at 3am saturday morning, to ask what tune my piano palyed?????? This led to several text messages and I now know, possibly a little more than I would like, about a random stranger who calls people from the Articles for sale section, and tries to use it as an oppurtiunity to pull!!! - They appear convinced that they have struck lucky, so I may set them up with some dotty old woman from the local nut house, and that should teach them! Knowing my luck, it will be a Brad Pitt look alike, and he will fall madly in love with the old bat, and run into the sunset together!!! (let's hope they run straight into it and frazzle!)

I haven't had my tattoo yet... no I'm not wimping out, I kindly gave my slot...... sorry, change that... my appointment...... to a friend! - It is booked for next week, so there will be an update!

Lol Rabbit

Ok, here goes, positive thinking!..... So far my week has been pretty crap to say the least, but (dare I say it?)...... I am going to turn it around!... All week I have been trying to do good deeds to make up for my bad luck, as it must be because I have done something wrong along the line! And do you know what? You make your own luck, I can't do anything about work, I have been trying my hardest, if I lose my job, it isn't the end of the world, I can get another, probably better!..... College should by now be happy and sorted........ parents are kind of ok  with me, I have the most excellent group of friends anyone could ask for, who still talk/text/call/email me, even when I have been a bit of a wild rabbit, and definitly with no lucky foot to rub!

So, sod it! Keep smiling, keep laughing, I have my health, friends, family, job (just), prospects..... and as for the love life? Well hey, variety is the spice of life, and everything happens for a reason, if it is meant to be it will be etc etc etc..........

Oh, and I need to go back on a diet.....to many easter eggs!

Update on the housemate front? HE  moved in last night, we treated him to a chinese, and he seems really cool, very genuine and very sweet! Lets hope this is one decision I have made recently which is right!!! - And the view on the landing this morning wasn't to bad either!!! he he!

And for all you disbelievers, no this is not why I am in a better mood today! - I am purely after his money!

Oh, and I am going for a tattoo tomorrow! - I think it is going to hurt.........lots......

Ok, refering to "B" in the previous entry, I am now personally holding all stupid mobile phone accessory and download companies, responsible for me looking like a complete stalker!

My housemate thinks, that what I have discovered is the funniest thing she has heard in her life, and has yet to stop laughing..... I on the other hand was laughing, more hysterically, but the tears are real!

After more than a few vodkas on saturday night, I did the usual female thing of calling said person 3/4 times over a period of a couple of hours....now I know this is bad anyway, but it happens, not always to me, and not with such consequence....... when I couldn't understand, why said person was so angry and seemingly not speaking to me, I called them (yes again! but a few days later)..... only to discover that they were extremely pi$$ed with me, and I mean really pi$$ed with me...... but get this.... for calling 30 times. Now I know I called a few, but I thought this was maybe a slight exaggeration, but they were adamant, and said they checked their phone and it said 30...... so completely mortified that I now appear to said person as a serious stalker to be avoided at all costs, I retold this story to my sister.... (by the way, the phone that said person is using is my sisters old phone which I lent them). Waiting for a sympathetic reaction, I looked at my sister who had her hand over her mouth and burst into hysterics........ it seems that when she had the phone her ex downloaded a popularity application onto the phone, which quadruples and multiplys the number of calls and messages you have recieved to make you look popular........ so it is true, he thinks I have called him 30 times........ and it was probably 4...........

Well phone company...... your "popularity" device has made me look anything but!

Thanks for fucking up my life!

Lol x

Not a happy bunny today....... At all! ..........if one more person had shouted at me yesterday, told me they were pissed at me, or just generally unhappy with me, I think I may have cried!...... The moral of the story?

A) Don't get drunk all the time

 B) Leave your mobile at home unless you want to appear like a bunny boiler and completley fuck up all the hard work youv'e done

C) If your tutor hates you as it is, DO NOT do anything else to wind her up!

D) If you are feeling unwell over a prolonged period of time, stop drinking and going out so the Doctor then doesn't have to tell you off also!

And whilst we are on the subject, how the hell does "Are you in a stable relationship" have anything to do with your health? The look on the Doctors face, when I told him the Mrs in front of my name on his screen was a mistake, well, you would of thought I had walked into his house on Christmas day and pissed all over his kids!....... I then had my prescriptoin thrust at me and told to "make sure reception know your mistake!"...... The only mistake I made was to marry the arsehole in the first place!

Rant over! Let's hope today goes a bit better eh?

Lol Rabbit x

ps: I am quitting risk!

Morning!

Tonight I have my first housemate interview!! You will be surprised to learn that I have NOT seen this one's picture, but he sounds like a good guy, has made me laugh and seems genuine enough? I will be picking him up this evening, and I have left my lovely other housemate, tidying up! (Although between me and you, I think she is kind of holding out for the Maltese guy!!)..

Update on the love life? Well apart from having to remember that I am interviewing these guys as people to pay the rent, and NOT as potential husbands, I predominantly seem to be on a rollercoaster, up one minute (literally), and down the next........ and do you know what? I always used to whoop everyones asses at Risk! Seems like the international game is slightly different!

Oh well, Rollercoasters are odd when your on them, you can't decide if you like it or not, whether the butterflies in your tummy are a nice feeling, or it means you are going to spew on the poor sod closest to you, but regardless, once you have finished the ride, you always feel a bit braver about going on a bigger one the next time!!!! (and feel free to interpret that how you wish!)

Lol x